It's been a while since the last time I blogged. I've been busy for the past months, almost the entire year. As much as I wanted to write again, work got in the way and alcohol consumed my weekends so writing really got off my priority list. For the past few years, every time I would decide to write something on December 31st, it is usually about a girl that I fell in love with, that I tried to court and then for some reason broke my heart. Well, today is that day again and it's no exception. While I like to believe that I am not as emotional or sappy as before, its almost like a tradition for me to take a seat on the last day of the year and reflect on that one person that made my heart skip a beat. But unlike the previous times, I'm not that sad, I'm not that depress. More or so, I'm mature already when it comes to these things. What doesn't change though is the genuine and sincere love that I always show.
I met this girl a few months ago at work. Got to see a glimpse of her for numerous occasions and I always found her aura so alluring. Until one day I finally got to know her name and did my very best to find a way to meet her. It was a cold night. I went outside our workplace for a while to withdraw money in the ATM. On my way back, I saw a figure standing on a street lamp around the parking lot. For some reason I was palpitating. As I slowly approach that figure, it was that girl. I approached her with a calm demeanor, we talked a little. It was starting to rain so we step aside on a covered area and then we exchanged numbers. We separated ways after that. During that time she was having some ups and downs with her boyfriend. Until such time came when I asked her to go out and she agreed. On our very first date, everything went so well. For the first time in my life I had an awesome time with a girl. Better and greater than the previous times I've been with a girl. Probably the best. Since then a lot of things happened but to cut it short, she still had a hang-up with her ex, or BF, whatever. So, I had no place in her heart and me and her never got to be together.
Looking back, if there is one thing that can highlight the relationship between the two of us, it's the similarities that we have. Tons of similarities. To the point the she even mentioned that we might be soulmates. So many that I think it freaked her out. Now, I never really believed in soulmates before. But I don't know, with her, everything just seemed right. It is unusual but with the similarities that we have, its really perfect fit that maybe she is my soulmate. She got back with her boyfriend, I went away, but she never went away my mind. I always think about her everyday. With 2013 coming, I don't know what's in store for me. All I know is that for 2012, I met the girl that is probably, or I would like to believe is my soulmate. I'm not quite sure, I don't know. Whatever the case maybe, she will always be special in my heart. So I dedicate this poem to a very special girl by the name of Claudine Gin Young Libre. Wherever you are Claud, I'll always love you...
Soulmate
by: Noel Yulo
I never really believe in soulmates before
They said its true but facts I wanted more
A particular soul that will be with you forever
I shunned the idea but the thought was clever
If someone is meant for you than that's that
If not than accept that as a simple fact
No need to make anything spiritual about it
You might fail in searching and that'll be sad
But if its indeed true then how will you know
If you are feeling funny is it 100% sure?
I wanted to know because I don't know if this is it
Met this girl and suddenly there's a struggle on my beliefs
I look into her eyes and I see something great
Her eyes was something big like an endless space
Beautiful stars align when I stare at them
As if it meant something beyond this realm
We have too many similarities it's actually crazy
I would like to say coincidences but its really freaky
But other than that the simply fact is I love this girl
Not the first love but the first love of my soul
I grind my teeth because I don't want to over think
But it's just something about her that makes me cringe
She is so beautiful as if its a summer's day
My eyes simply refuse too look away
Her attitude is not perfect but unique as it comes
When I'm around her life is simply joyful and fun
Things may have not work out initially with her
But it seemed that whatever happened didn't matter
She is my soulmate and forever we will be linked
I don't know how the future goes but I'm excited for it
So if you'll ask me if I believe in soulmates
Well I actually did, when I met Claudine Libre
My only pic of her. Forever a treasure. :)
