A letter to my dear girlfriend

It's already cliche to start of my blog posts these days with a "I haven't been blogging for a while" but that is reality for me. I miss writing but in a way I am still grateful that God gave me abilities to write. I'm quite not sure if they are enough to inspire or entertain people, but I'm positive that my posts can provide a good story and will give you an idea on what is like to be me. But after 40 posts about almost anything in my life, I never really got a chance to talk about my girlfriend. You see, it was around January of this year when I got a glimpse of this very beautiful girl. And while I never really planned to court her initially, it was through fate that I got the chance to know her more. For years I have asked God why I never really got to a point of getting a girlfriend despite my genuine love and devotion. But when I met her, I felt in my heart an answer to my lingering question, "Here. She is the answer to your question." Never have I been so humbled by God's grace it is because I never realize that well that indeed good things come to those who wait. And after 6 months of love, happiness, joy, laughter, heartaches, tears, I am happy to say that I am still with her, happy and growing together every day. Maybe she's also one of the reasons why I haven't been able to blog because I mostly devote my time for her. That is why it's only fitting that on our 6th month together, I would like to write a letter to let her know how much I love her, to write down a huge part of my life into my blog. No matter what happens moving forward, I want to remember always that a girl so special to me, spent six months being with me, loving me, cherishing me and making me feel the happiest man on the world. Wherever you are right now, whatever you are doing, babe, hopefully you can read this...

Dear *a*,

          Hello baby! I miss you so much! No words can truly entail all the love I have for you. Its quite amazing to think that we have been together for six months now. Back then the idea that I'll get a girlfriend was quite an impossible feat for me. Yet, you came into my life and you made me realize that someone out there can actually love me. I know I haven't been an ideal and perfect boyfriend for you, but for all your imperfections, you have become a perfect girl for me. I've probably said a lot of things to you already that I fear you might get fed up. But all I know is that I will never stop reminding you that I am in love with you. I'm actually writing this while listening to "Little Things". And it brings tears to my eyes knowing that I do love you, that even for all the pain and heartaches you have given me, all I can do is just and still love you. For all the little things you do you make me a better man. 

          I never really thought seven something months ago that you will end up being my girlfriend. But despite all, the idea of being far away from another, the different outlooks we have in life, for a good reason God gave me you. I feel that one of my missions in life is to love you like no other. And while I believe that it will be a huge task to take, please know that I am more than willing to go through everything. You mean so much to me and I can't imagine going on without you. I feel like I'm the only person in the world that can truly love you, understand you, care for you. Thank you for the privilege to love someone like you and I will make sure not to let you down. I make mistakes, I'm just human, but for all my hindrances, I will love you the way you deserve.

          I know you don't like to read, especially long posts, but I just want to take this time to say that I love you very much! That whatever happens I will always love you. I want to be with you. I know it will be hard, but I want to be with you. You are a gift from God and I know He will be there to always give me strength to love you. I believe in your capabilities and I know you will be great someday. And if no one believes you, let me tell you that I am here, believing in you and I will support you no matter what. Thank you for the six months that we have been together. I look forward for another month, year and an eternity with you. I love you so much Baby *a*! I love you so much babe! Gwapa mahal na mahal kita! I love you so much beautiful! I love you so much! 

                                                                                                               Yours,

                                                                                                                       Noel

My dear Baby *a*!

2013: Year of the Bad-Ass

A year ago, I was a disgruntled man. I was in the point of my life where I was fed up with a  lot of things. Whatever aspect I would like to look myself at, I was simply dissatisfied with whatever I had. So I decided to hype things up. I decided to go through a rebirth: Deadman Walking (Emotions), Epitome of Bad-Assery (Toughness) and Greatness Personified (Confidence). Three personas that I created, molded and tried to live by. While in a way I was able to live by those three personas, summing up 2012, it was more of the growth of Noel Yulo. I got to learn a lot of things, went through a lot of things and most importantly, I got to experience things that made me a better person. But as 2012 ended, looking back I felt that with all the improvements I had, I still had a lot of setbacks. People are much familiar with me as Deadman Walking, a guy that is emotional for a lot of things, good or bad. It's a known fact that I am in touch with my inner emotions. So now I had to focus on what I need to do to be considered great. And for me to reach greatness, I need to be more tougher, braver, wiser on dealing with a lot of things. 

In a way people have seen me change both in a positive and negative aspect. Good or bad, I decided to be or do certain things that were best for me and my interest. But often times I am inconsistent. Yesterday I might have approached a girl and ask for her number but tomorrow I might shy myself away to even look at a girl. I'm never the same Noel in certain time or place. In this world, you must have an image, and that image I want to portray in this year and moving forward is a bad-ass guy that does anything in a consistent basis. No one to tell him what to do or even say to him what is best for him.

I know that with the brand new year starting, I'll have a lot of challenges to go through. I still need to learn a lot of things. But if I have to go through things, I want to be the best Noel Yulo out there. It's not about if I can approach a girl anytime or anywhere, it's not about doing something stupid just to prove I am bad, it's simply about getting getting better and making people around me better. I'm not the best example out there but I just want to show the world that I can be good at the right place at the right time. So I set 2013 as the Year of the Bad-Ass. The year I will totally close out any fear, be tough on a  lot of things and kick ass on whatever that I do.

Grabbing on every opportunity. Improve every weakness. Enhance all strengths. Be better in every aspect. Achieve every goal. Inspire the weak. Beat the best. Ready for the worst. Overcome the bad. Collect victories. Clamor at every win. Learn from defeat. God-fearing, ass-whooping, tough-minded....always.