by: Noel Yulo
I used to think that she can be as sweet as sugar
Lovable, caring, molded the same way as an angel
But little did I know that she is quite special in ways
Ways that would leave me dumbfounded for days
And as much as I would like to think that she's okay
There is just more to her than what people would say
But that's why she's special despite she left me in a twirl
There is really nothing compared to my dear maldita girl
The first time I saw her, her beauty captured me eyes
I wouldn’t thought she would captivate me by surprise
While I didn’t hope that I’ll get a chance to meet her
Destiny seemed to have plans for us to meet each other
My friends would talk to her and shout out my name
I would shy out but a “Hi!” she would always say
I know that she’s only forcing herself to greet an “elder”
But that’s how my interest started for this maldita girl
I didn’t really plan for us to be more than acquaintance
Frankly speaking I always forget what her name was
I went with my life not wondering how or where she is
Until one hot afternoon going home I saw her in a dress
“That’s gotta be the girl I had a crush on during the review”
“Can’t believe we’re just neighbors, who would have known”
From there on knowing her name was a priority, I was on a whirl
I guess I wanted to know more things about this maldita girl
So the determined finally got what he was looking for
I was already on the outside and about to knock on her door
No more hello exchanges, I was about to enter in her life
Didn’t know what to expect but I already had her in my sight
So I added her in Facebook and in few days accepted my request
I sent her out quickly a message not wanting to fail in my quest
I thought she ignored it but after a few days a got a reply from her
I couldn’t believe I was having a conversation with the maldita girl
Not long thereafter we pretty much got to know more each other
She was an interesting girl to say at least and has a sense of humor
I got to ask for her number and she quickly handed it out
God himself was looking down on me that day from above
It went on from days and to conclude it she was a pretty cool chick
Those early moments we had were like the start of a romantic flick
I didn’t want to think more than what was happening between us I swear
But to be honest I got confused if I was already falling for this maldita girl
After a grueling wait I finally found out that I passed the board exam
Of course, I had to checked immediately and called my new found “friend”
It was a blessing indeed when I found out she passed as well
But at that time I was confused, my feelings for her I couldn’t tell
She was having a thanksgiving party and surprisingly I got invited
She didn’t knew me that much yet but I definitely was delighted
Surrounded by her family and close friends, I felt out of place
But I couldn’t care, I got an invite from the maldita girl anyways
We stayed in touch through text and I was always updated about her
She would tell me about her day went as an event organizer
She got acquainted with my friends and they would tease me a lot
“Noel has a new girl again” they would say, but I said she isn’t
My heart got broken for so many times that I was truly afraid
But slowly but surely my heart grew fonder for her every day
She had an interesting past that made me unsure of this girl
But deep inside I wanted to be the future of this maldita girl
I would often visit her at work and we would go out for dinner
At times we would just go out and do things altogether
I’ve never had an experience like this with any other woman
Whenever I’m with her we’d always find ways to have fun
That’s why one evening while we were talking over the phone
Through circumstances I had to say those three damn words
“I Love you, Emervy”, and every feelings went on a swirl
I finally made my feelings clear for the shocked maldita girl
Nothing was automatic, and of course it was a slow process
At first it felt like she rejected me but she just wasn’t sure yet
My heart got broken that night but unlike those times in the past
I didn’t weep for that long and I got up to my feet really fast
She asked me a question before that I applied on to that moment
“Why didn’t you got for a second try to the girls you’ve loved before?”
And I answered, “There was no point on going after again for those girls”
But for this time around, I wanted to fight for my love for the maldita girl
Everything was good on that point, everything felt in place
I was a little bit on a rush but I just have to keep up with her pace
I would forget that moment where we talked in a coffee shop
I got curious and asked her bluntly who I was in her life?
She told me to give her choices and she would just pick one
I was teary-eyed when I found out I’m her special someone
I felt I was in a good place, the best thing just happened to me
I was touching maldita girl’s hand and the moment felt forever
But as everything seem to go into the right direction
Something happened that was out of my expectations
She suddenly disappeared, no single word was said
I looked for her, I wanted to know what happened
She said she was just looking for herself, she’ll be fine
I asked about us, she said you’ll just know in time
At that point she explained to me what a girl she really is
It was at this point she told me what a maldita girl she is
I tried to hang-on, I tried to understand what she was going through
But she left me in a cold position, she just left and gone she flew
I just wanted to know where she would like me to place myself
But she was busy she says, ignored my words like she’s deaf
I was getting annoying, a first time in my life I was
But I love her too much just not to give a fuck
“I’m very busy Noel, please, please stop bugging me”
Her message hit me strong, and from there on it was clear
My love for her was stained, I got confused with my feelings again
I wanted to hate her for treating me like crap, I was going insane
I didn’t want to be on this position again, but she made sure I did
She couldn’t give a two cents anymore if I was dying slowly in my bed
My friends told me to just move on, she’s not worth of my love
But I knew her more than my friends, they didn’t know what’s up
I knew nothing has ended yet, and it took me some time to think about it
I got lost in transition, was down, but I’m finally back on my feet
I miss the times when I would borrow her phone and check her pictures
The times we went out having fun, at times giving one another a lecture
Walking together and getting to hold her hand while we cross the streets
Hugging each other goodbye but secretly going to her head for a kiss
These are the moments that define my love for this girl
I’m pretty much convinced this maldita girl is the girl I’d die for
And nothing is much quite sure right now despite the things I want to hurl
People will think I’m crazy but I'm definitely in love with this maldita girl
She has completely captivated in whole my heart
To give up on her wouldn’t be really smart
No words can ever complete the way I can describe her
More ways than one I’d truly say I’ve fallen again all over
She has ripped me apart but I’m still in love with this fine lady
I miss the Emervy I thought I knew but I’ll still love the real Emervy
I know that there is nothing like her anywhere around the world
I’d keep on fighting if it means finally having her as my maldita girl
Me and the maldita girl. :D
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